Why do I, along with others, sing,write,talk,yell about suffering and hatred? It doesnt do anything does it. Couldnt my time be better spent looking for ways to eradicate this Disease called hate. My friend was complaining to me the other day, about how she never gets to sing on stage. She mentioned how unfair it was, and how unfairly she was being treated. She went on to say that the leader's are biased and dont like her as much as the others.
I stopped her and asked if she had mentioned any of this to The leader in charge of Scheduling. She said no. I told her,"If your not willing to do something about it, you have no right to complain about it."

Oh baby boy, get ready. Get ready for quite the ride. Tv, Books, Movies, Parents, Friends, Elders, Youngers, Shmucks, cowboys, and drivers have all built it up so well. They have created and constructed your set with such detail you dont know your living on one. Dont get me wrong, its ugly and horrible and by no means happy, but they know how to build a convincing world.
There's a catch though; its wrong.

What's out there and what you can make of it, isnt entirely up to you. Try as hard as you'd like and it really wont matter. Or maybe it will, Maybe it is entirely up to you. You dont have to be a doctor Or  lawyer or Civic engineer to be happy. Perhaps all that is needed for happiness and success is Effort and Love. A bit of passion, to give up on trying to be individual. If your special wont it manifest itself? Focus on building your self, not your self image.

wHO KNOWS

If i had 100 baby's and One cow, Would i eat the cow?
Interesting discussion tonight, very interesting. Human life and its value's based on ethics and morality. Do we need a God to maintain Objective Standards? Hmm hmm hm

Whats eating gilbert Grape

I watched that today, it put me in such a strange mood. Ive only felt that way Three other times. Once when i watched "I am Sam" I was in third grade i think. A second time when i watched "Radio" I was in Fifth Grade. Most recently when i finished reading "Of mice and men".

Pay us no mind

I thought i would write something,this, before i drown myself in the forgetfulness of social networking. I am sad, acutely felt sadness. A sharp sense of leaving, letting go of things i know now are special.

I went on a missions trip to england. Honestly, it was unlike anything ive been on previously and it surpassed every expectation i had set up beforehand. Meeting people who believed of their own will, when their parents wished they would believe otherwise. The scenery was breathtaking; I believed scenery such as that was no longer around. Modern expansion's Steel fingers left Camelford Untouched. After seeing the views and the sea, i can understand where Tolkien found inspiration to conjure up elves and Hobbits and magic. It is truly a place where you can still feel the remnants of a time gone by, where magic was thick and belief in it even denser.

More than any of the scenery or new friends,  i will miss those i went on the trip with most of all. They are truly people worth knowing, worthy of attention they will not get. I wish to live up to their expectations, so that i may give them credit. There are many things i wish i could change about our time together, but that is a moot point. With the time i am given, i refuse to squander. Carpe Diem. "Seize the day boys, make your lives' extraordinary". Be it a card on her windshield, or an invite to tea, I will seize the time i have left. Im sorry i Hurt people, im sorry i paid you no mind. Thats life tho, Im just your neighbor with 15 chickens, squawking away. Yet i am not home to pick up their eggs, so they lay rotting in my lawn.

-The Staves
 , Pay us no Mind.


May the stars watch over you, and peace live in your heart.

-Ian

Henry and a spritzer

Very often we allow our goals or ambitions to become substitutes for action.We allow Thinking to take the place of conversing. The knowledge of one's potential is enough to sate one's desire for greatness or achievement." I could'a  been at the top baby, but i jus' didnt want to be one of those people, ya know? Who dont spend any time enjoying life; music and writing arn't about forcing something to come, it has just gotta happen, like a wet dream, ya know? "

pardon that terrible example. Im just stuttering along here trying to say that we let our potential become our achievement. We do not achieve because we are pacified in telling ourselves that we COULD have done it. When our anger and disappointment begin to surface, we just layer on a thick cream of could have and eventually, we believe it. Our fear of failure, our fear of strange circumstance, keep us from trying.
We convince ourselves we could have, but didn't. We didnt fail because we weren't good enough but because we chose not to compete. A life lived on could have. Maybe you would have done something, maybe you would not have done something. I will never know unless i try.

SEX MAN!

I dont know what it is about it, but it just sorta makes me cringe. It's the great destroyer and creator of innocence.Seeing as it takes away something..but has the potential to create life. Everyone wants it, but it seems like an awful thing, people are never the same afterwords. This isnt to say people should never grow up, but i feel like the world would be a better, more productive, place if babies were really delivered or were produced Asexually. This might seem like a strange subject to be hating or discussing, but at a time where the pursuit of it pushes all other goals aside.Its just sad, friendships dissolve due to its tension or presence; relationships peak or crash as an after effect of this. Im sure its naivety, but people everywhere are in pursuit of purity and innocence. If we cannot achieve this we often submerge ourselves in the antithesis. Why do we love babies? Not just human babies but baby dogs and tigers and monkeys. They have not learned to fear, they have not learned what it is to struggle to survive, they are at an innocence we will never regain. BLEH, im not yet a father, and i hope to avoid being such for twenty years or so, but i couldnt imagine the trepidation i would feel, about a daughter. Does it really take away anything from us? i think...but dont know
idk its all nonsense really, life happens, we must accept that it happens. We can fight the bugs, we can fight the sun, we can fight the night; Squashing, build shade, create light, but we cannot avoid the inevitable human nature. We must either accept it as it is, people are people. Or we ourselves will wither away from the hate we harbor for the people we cannot change.

mind erased

I saw a movie, they got their memories erased, and seemingly started over again but chose to do the exact same things. I can only wonder if we as individuals, if me as a person, are so set in out ways that we would do the same thing, time after time, chance after chance. Would i love the same person, would i think the same things, make the same mistakes, If at the end of my life i begged God for a second chance and he said okay; but you wont know its a redo, thats my one stipulation. Would my life turn out any differently? Thats the thing i sometimes wonder about, considering reincarnation. If we really are everyone on the planet at once, thats how we eventually become Gods or Enlightend or fulfilled is by experiencing everything, the entire scope of humanity, by making every choice possible, we become fulfilled and KNOW every choice possible thus we can create our own people or selves and let them learn and know.
Its not true, but its a theory.